Update...

Well, yesterday was the start of my final cycle of chemotherapy! Cycle 6A is down and out and all I have is one more treatment, 6B which will take place in 13 days. If my second treatment was not postponed a week when I started all this, I would have had my last treatment on Rachel's mom's birthday. I wish that was the case, but it is kind of hard when I don't have any control.



As treatments have been coming and going, this process has only been getting harder and harder even with the end in sight. Like I have said before, there is no real guide to how you are going to react to the chemo, and how you are going to react mentally. I don't want this to come across as negative, but I think I am just pissed off that I have had to go through all this. Would I change any of it, probably not? The only reason why I say that is because I have really learned a lot about myself these past 6 months, I have also learned what's really important to me and what things need to come first. I think the biggest thing to me and is most important are growing my relationships with my family and friends. I really have learned that life can be too short and there are certain things we have no control over. For me, it is important to slow down and cherish what I do have. Sometimes we all take things for granted without realizing it. So, that's the biggest thing I want to work on once I am feeling better.



I never knew how stressful this process was going to either. Not being able to work much the past 6 months has really starting driving me crazy. I miss meeting new people, working with new people and being around the people I work with. Being cooped up in the house for the past 6 months just gets boring. Plus, if I am not working, I am not making any money. The only positive to that is I won't have pay taxes this year ;) Obama doesn't deserve my money anyways! But I really can't wait to start working again; going through savings and not making in money is no fun.



Besides all that, I am pretty excited to have my last chemo treatment. Going through chemo really sucks and I hope no one ever has to do it. If you have been through it, you're a real trooper in my mind and I hope that you never have to go through it again. Everyone keeps telling me that radiation is a breeze compared to chemo, I can't wait to get that going and I can't wait to get the port removed from my chest. I know I am jumping ahead a bit, but as you can imagine, I am ready to be done with all this. I went out with the guys last weekend to the Dawgs game and had a great time. I went against my doctor’s word and had a few drinks and enjoyed a long day of tailgating and football. That was good for me to get out and just enjoy life. I look forward to many more tailgates, football games, and great times with friends and family. Next year will be a much better year, and more enjoyable!



I have now lost all my eyebrows, I kind of look alienish...

Today is my 10th treatment.

I apologize for the lack of postings that past month or so!

Man...I really don't know where to start with this note, but I guess I will start with the fact that I have my 10th treatment today at noon and that means I will only have two more treatments of chemo(4 weeks) left. I still have to follow up chemo with 4 weeks of radiation, but everyone is telling me that is a breeze compared to chemo. I know I am not finished with treatment, but the past 6 months have been a mix of good times and hard times. The treatment itself is hell, and I am over being sick and having no energy to do stuff, especially work. There is no Chemo for Dummies book, so no one can completely prepare you for it. The stress of not being able to work much is starting to get to me, it is pretty difficult to generate business when you are sick. I am able to work for about 5 hours a day at most on my good weeks, but by the time I get home, I am exhausted. I was hoping to have more referrals from past clients and friends, but it has definitely been slow for me the past 6 months. I am lucky to be able to work with my dad, as he is pretty damn good at generating leads. But at the same time nothing ever happens fast enough in the real estate business. So, let me know if you know of anyone that is looking to purchase or sell their home. My dad and I have a great partnership, and we will get the job done!

Now that I have done a little venting about work, I feel a little better. Besides the stress and being sick constantly, I am excited about being done with chemo. I try to do everything to stay positive, but I will not lie...chemo has taken its toll on me. I do find it harder to get excited about things and I think this is because it has been so long since I been able to just do whatever. It is definitely hard not being able to do things like I used to be able to. I wish I was able to travel, take off for the weekend, play a round of golf (I did that once this year, but I had a pounding headache by the time we were done) but I don't have a choice. The only thing I can focus on is getting healthy. I obviously have one thing to look forward to that I get excited about and that is our wedding in April. I am excited about our wedding for some many different reasons, and I cannot wait until spring because I will be getting back to normal. I have been told that it will probably take 6 months or so to get back to normal from the chemo.

Besides all that, I don't have much to complain about. I am beating the cancer, I am comfortable for the most part, I have the best fiance a guy could ever ask for, my parents have been extremely helpful throughout this whole process, and I have the best friends. I always enjoy getting out of the house and meeting up with friends. It is usually a low key thing, but just being around other people is so nice as I get cabin fever after treatment because I am so wiped out for about 4-5 days.

There is only so much TV I can watch. I think I need to get on Wheel of Fortune soon, I am killing their puzzles right now! ;)